It’s December 3. Can you hear that clock ticking? I’ve been saying all along that I was going back to work on January 5. That is just over one month away.
And not just any month — December! December is busy for everyone, but for the Rathjes it might be just a bit crazier than it is for most. We have four, yes 4, birthdays in our immediate family during December. Two of our members are on academic calendars which have final exams during December. And, we are involved in church work which is especially dense with activities during December.
So, after just three days in this month of all months I am sitting here thinking to myself, “am I really going to be ready to go to work on January 5?”
Now, if you’ve been paying attention, you know that I have cheated a little — I just finished editing a novel for a local author, I am coaching a graduate student through his dissertation, I have been blogging, I jumped in with both feet to a project making hygiene kits for women in Kenya, and I have been pretty busy exploring avenues for improving my health. I haven’t really been ‘sitting around eating bonbons’.
Certainly I haven’t been working nearly as hard as I had in years past. I do take time almost every day to exercise and to rest, but I have been, at least in the last six weeks or so, fairly productive. Yet I’m not sure I am quite ready to go back to work.
I saw a job posting today at the University of Michigan for an English Language Arts Specialist. Doesn’t that sound fancy? It’s a position that supports beginning teachers and the educators of beginning teachers. My wheels started turning and I thought, “Wouldn’t that be exciting to help shape tomorrow’s educators?” And then I remembered that I came home from my Bible study this morning, ate a bowl of soup, then plunked myself on the couch for a couple of hours. “Come on, Kristin, what about that position working with non-traditional students trying to complete their diplomas, wouldn’t that be great?” Yes, it would; I would love it, if I could be sure I would be able to get out of bed and to school every morning by 8:00.
Sigh. I’m tired.
I know the plans I have for you…
Do not fear, for I have been pleased to give you the kingdom.
Don’t worry about tomorrow…each day has enough trouble of its own.
Many are the plans in your heart, but My purpose prevails.
I Peter 5:7
I will cast all my anxiety on You, because You care for me.
(Rathje Revised Version)