It’s happening; we are settling in. Last night I made dinner in my new little galley kitchen for the first time, and we ate at our new-to-us dining room table. This morning, my husband got up early, went for a run with Chester, came home, showered, dressed for work, and walked out the door. So, here I sit in the office, with my morning cup of tea, on my first day of actually being still.
Ok, I’m going to be honest — I have a to-do list. Come on, you can’t expect me to actually be still, can you? I mean, I am not job hunting, ok? Isn’t that good enough? Alright, confession number two. I actually already got hired for a job. But it’s a one-day job. Only one day. Election day. I am going to use my iPhone to report election returns to Reuters. Come on, you know you are jealous. And that is not until November. So, calm down, ok? I am being still.
Chester and I are just chillin’ today. That’s him in the pic, having his post-run, post breakfast snooze…lulled by the sound of my clicking keys. I can tell he’s settling in, too. He didn’t eat Saturday when the movers were loading us. He didn’t eat Sunday in the new, empty house. He ate a little on Monday, but not on Tuesday. Yesterday he ate with me standing there cheering him on. And this morning, when he got back from his run, I filled his dish and he ate it all right away. Success! Settling in.
Change is difficult. All the excitement and busy-ness of the past several days (weeks) has shrouded the emotion of leaving. But, leaving St. Louis is hard. As I am chillin’ here with Chester, my colleagues back in St. Louis are running a camp that I started and coordinated for several years. They are doing an excellent job, but I do miss being part of it. Tomorrow the faculty will meet for back-to-school meetings while I am walking in Gallup Park. I won’t miss sitting in a chair for hours on end, but I will miss my people.
So, I am adding an item to my to-do list for today. I am going to be sad. I am going to think about my St. Louis people and all that they are doing, and maybe, finally, I will shed a few tears. I am going to be happy, too. Later this evening we are having dinner with friends that we left when we moved to St. Louis ten years ago. I was really sad then, too.
Change is difficult. Being still, for me, is difficult. But, I am watching Chester and trying my best to be still and settle in.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6