Imagine me lying on an inflatable raft and floating down a river on a beautiful Michigan day. That is how life has been the last couple of days. With this full house, I have refrained from creating my everyday to-do list. And I have been trying something different — going with the flow.
Going with the flow has meant staying up until 1:00 am or later — two nights in a row. It has meant that yesterday I woke up at 10:20 am! I have written my blog in the middle of the night. I have eaten a warm kale, cilantro, black bean salad created by one daughter and black bean (gluten-free) brownies created by the other daughter. I have gone on a walk with Chester, started a Grisham book, and watched Sabrina. I took a walk on campus which equated to a walk down memory lane.
Sounds pretty lovely, doesn’t it? So, I wonder if I will allow myself to go with the flow a little more often.
This goes back to my doing v. being still theme. I am trying to explore the fact that doing and being still do not have to be in opposition. The two can co-exist. In fact, in all my floating around yesterday, I did get my migraine-suffering daughter in to see an acupuncturist and also discovered that two miles from our new home is the leading migraine headache clinic in the nation. Yes, while floating, we got her a comprehensive appointment for next week.
But I didn’t really accomplish anything else. This is new for me, the one who has measured my value by the number of things I get done and how well I do them. It is new for me to see the overgrown flower bed and acknowledge that I want to do something to it without jumping right up and tearing out the weeds right away. It is new for me to be comfortable co-existing with the unfinished, unsettled, unpolished.
But floating is nice. See how sparkly the water is? Hear the wind blowing?
Right now I am sitting in my adirondack chair on my porch, looking at the scene in the photo above. Coffee was just delivered to me. Tomorrow we pack up our daughter to move to college, but today I am going to continue to float.
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.